Introspection

If you have found this website, there are probably two basic reasons for doing so. You could have randomly found it, just surfing the web, or you could have been searching. Like me, you have questions. I have spent so much time thinking about and questioning my faith. Do I believe? Is there a God? How can I be sure? I questioned, always, and always I believed.

One day I was so intent on my meditation. Did I believe in God? Would I ever find the answer to that question. I looked inside myself. Searching within me. Then, it dawned on me. Maybe I already had the answer.

I wear a silver cross around my neck, and often make sure others can see it. I say the Lord's prayer every night as I go to sleep asking for protection and guidance. As I do things I often find myself asking God for help. Praying to receive guidance.

A couple of weeks ago I was working on a craft project with wood. As I ran my hand over the wood and worked, I found myself saying a prayer for the creation to turn out. As I reviewed my life, and my daily activities, I was overwhelmed by the number of times a day I talk to God. 

As a father, my main concern is the welfare of my children. Their safety. Always I ask for their protection. There have been times when I have felt as if I could "feel" God's presence. Watching a sunset. Sitting somewhere taking in nature.

Looking back there were many times when I wondered how things would work out. Has not God always provided?

I still wonder. I still have questions, but, do I believe. Is there a God? To me there must be. Looking within myself, would I do all I do if I did not believe. Has the answer always been there. Within me.

We must all look within ourselves. Only the individual can make the decision on belief for themselves. I still have questions. I still wonder. Still, I am one step closer to knowing God.

November 2003 ~ Faith, Healing and God